I really can't even believe I'm typing this blog post right now. My biggest little is 5. I'm not even sure how that happened. I will never forget the way I felt when I first had him. I remember everyone telling me that when you have your first child you will instantly feel love like you've never felt before. And, although I did instantly love him like crazy, that fierce incredible love that everyone told me about kind of washed over me like a wave those first few days. I'll never forget holding him in those early days and just being in complete disbelief that he was mine. That God allowed me to experience this precious thing called motherhood. It made me so different. I began to see so many things differently. Especially the love that God has for us. "For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only son that you would not perish but have eternal life." John 3:16. That verse really did come alive to me after having a child because I new so much more intimately how special Jesus was to God, but still He gave His life for me and you. I am so thankful for the gift of motherhood. It is certainly the hardest and least glamorous thing I have ever done but also the most rewarding and significant. My children are my greatest treasures. I am so glad that God chose to give me Beck first. It has been so wonderful to watch him grow and see how God is working in his life. He is all boy. Loves to be outside, get dirty, climb trees, hunt bugs. He is so sweet and gently with Reid and fiercely protective over him. He and Ellie are great buds too. I see him beginning to be a leader for them and he is so proud to take on new responsibilities. This year I saw him growing away from being such a little boy. I could start bawling right now just thinking about how he's grown, but I'm so glad I get to be with him every day and enjoy these little years. I say it all the time but it's so true... the days are long but the years are short. Happy Birthday baby.      Love, Mommy


I wanted to share some of my favorite personal images of Beck over this past year. Enjoy!